Okay so I know that I haven’t posted in awhile. For that, I’m sorry. To be honest, I don’t even know where to start. Ever since Passion this year, it’s been hard to even put into words what I want to say but here goes:
So my word for 2018 is FAITH. I want to grow in my faith to the point that if God speaks it, I do it. I don’t want to waver or hesitate but as soon as He says move, I move!
Passion this year was indescribable. Levi Lusko said, “The more you look forward to the next world, the less you’ll need from this one.” He talked about how David had already been anointed to be king in 1 Samuel 16 but he ends up hiding in a cave at Adullam. In hearing this, God immediately spoke to my heart, “You have to believe in the anointing that God has placed on you even when you don’t feel it or see it.” Trust that He will always keep His word. Levi said, “There is such a wonderful freedom in the permission to simply be faithful.” I think so often we take on more responsibility than we need to rather than being faithful with what we are called to do and trusting God with the rest.
I went to Passion this year expectant. I definitely needed some direction from the Lord. During one of the sessions, I heard the word “vision.” Here’s what I had written in my journal that day: “Give me Your vision. Not just Your vision for my life but eyes that look at people with love; that when they look in my eyes, Your love for them would be evident because it has filled me.” Love beyond logic.
Christine Caine is ANOINTED! She talked about shame and how we were not created to know shame. She talked about Genesis 3 when God finds Adam and Eve in the Garden and asks them, “Who told you that you were naked?” Christine challenged us to “locate where we believed the lie.” Who told you that you weren’t beautiful? Who told you that you were unlovable, etc? What are you listening to? Are you giving the enemy your attention when God is singing over you and speaking promises over you? Know the character of God and look at every situation in light of His character.
Once I got back from Passion, I sat down and accepted Christine’s challenge:
“Where did I believe the lie? My whole life, people have tried to buy my affection when all I wanted was time with them. When my parents divorced, I felt replaced and unimportant as other relationships began. When my brother and I would argue, I would feel afraid. When my parents divorced, I felt like I had to be strong and never got to really deal with all that had happened. During different phases of life, I lost some of my best friends. Because of broken relationships, I felt worthless and not good enough to keep their attention or affection. All of my life, through many situations, the enemy has been telling me that I’m not good enough not worthy of love, easily forgotten, a failure, and not important. But you know what? God speaks too! In fact, He has been speaking love over me since the beginning of time. From the moment that He said, “it is good,” such promise has been spoken over me. So, who told me these lies? Mostly, myself. But it ends NOW. I’m listening to what God says about me. Insecurity- you’re done. Christ declares me as holy through His sacrifice, renewed, a new creation- worth dying for! When He was on the Cross, He was thinking of me. I’m never forgotten and never has there been a moment when I have not been on the mind of Christ. I am not a failure. I may make mistakes but my mistakes are covered by the blood of a King of redemption; a King that shows me undeserved grace and love. I’ll never be worthy of His kindness but that’s the beauty of it. He still gives it. He still shows me reckless love that doesn’t make sense. It never will. To Him, a relationship with me was worth everything. I am important enough to Christ that He would come to earth and die for me so that I can truly know life. I can walk in freedom. I can walk with Him. I can enter into the throne room of Heaven, bowing before the very God who sought me and purchased me- all because of love! I matter to the King of Kings. I’ve never met someone that does not matter to Him. His Kingdom lives in me. His Spirit is my source. It’s my job to bring Heaven to earth. What an honor. We can’t be afraid to live radical lives for God. He pursues us radically with no limitations, let us be found doing the same- ever after His heart.”
I encourage you, if you’ve never done something like this, DO IT. There is such freedom in letting out the pain and loosing its hold on you, declaring who you are in Christ and your identity as His child. We are no longer slaves- we are heirs with complete access to the inheritance (Galatians 4:4-7).
The second night of Passion we got to hear Louie Giglio speak. Y’ALL. I needed his sermon. He posed the questions: “What would happen if all of us said yes to being flaming arrows in the hands of God? Do you trust His hands? Do you believe that the purpose is grand? Is the whole world hearing about Jesus better than your plan?” This sermon was tailored for me because in this season of my life in particular, I have struggled tremendously with the question: what am I supposed to do? Louie Giglio had some great advice: “Don’t let someone else tell you what you won’t do or can’t do. Let your heart be tuned to God and His Word. You can know what your arrow will do when it lands.” In surrendering to Christ and saying, “Lord, launch my life somewhere for Your glory,” we can trust His hands because “the hands that draw the bow are the hands that were scarred to buy our freedom.” At the end of his sermon, Louie asked us to stand if we wanted to be an arrow of the Lord and if we wanted to surrender to His purposes. Everyone in that arena stood up. This gives me such hope for this generation! God is on the move.
As we sat on the Marta on our way back to our hotel, the phrase “bold curiosity” came to my mind. I want to be bold enough to take steps of faith, watching and waiting for what God will do with great expectation.
Then the powerhouse, Priscilla Shirer comes onto the stage. One of the first things she said was, “When the enemy sees a son or daughter of God, he shakes in his boots because of the Holy Spirit inside of us. What a shame for the enemy to believe more about your potential than you do.” She encouraged us to “live for the applause of Heaven.” Insecurity has been one of my biggest struggles over the past few years but I needed this reminder: that I am anointed and highly favored. I inherit Him. He inherits me. He wants me. I am called beyond insecurity to rest securely in the arms of Jesus.
Some other life-changing quotes from Passion this year:
“I am blessed. I am called. I am healed. I am whole. I am saved in Jesus’ Name. Highly favored. Anointed. Filled with Your power, for the glory of Jesus’ Name.”
-“God, You’re So Good” by Passion
“If you want to see God be radical, be radical for Him.”
“Do it afraid.”
“Everyday we share the Gospel and sometimes we use words.”
“We impact people not just by showing up but by showing out for Jesus.”
“Wherever I go, I’m going for the fame of God- wherever my arrow lands!”
If you’ve never been to Passion, please consider it. It’s life-changing. Jesus shows up. When we meet with Him, we are forever changed.
“Yes, Lord, walking in the way of Your Truth, we wait eagerly for You, for Your name and Your renown are the desire of our souls.”